Loss
"We're really happy for you...but this is also such a loss."
This phrase, which is so very touching, strikes me with bewilderment at the same time.
Loss.
Perhaps we are still in somewhat denial with 7 or 6 months left to go. I have been focusing my time much more on 30 weeks of pregnancy and the disconnect between my body and brain that we will have an infant (G-d willing) soon. In fact, this consumes my thoughts about 90% of the time.
As I called the Jewish Agency to set up an interview, the music while on hold was a constant repeat of אין לי ארץ אחרת. A familiar tune, it is also one that was played during the pull out from Gaza, the Hitnatkut. I remember sitting in my aunt's apartment in Haifa, watching the images on TV and absolutely torn between the fundamental core values settling the land of Eretz Yisrael and the pursuit of peace.
I find myself thinking about loss and what this truly means.
While we've contributed to the community and communities we have lived in, this simply came as a no-brainer to help impact the future. The continuation of leadership is a healthy chain.
When I consider what we may be able to bring to Israeli society and to the land, we are excited by the ideals of Yeshuv Eretz Yisrael. We will certainly miss friends and family, but loss is the end of time. I've seen this process with my very own eyes - as a mother, bringing new life into the world and as a daughter, saying goodbye in an instant.
We chose wholeheartedly to make this change, aware of the negatives (yes, we've heard and read those too -- when we make it there, perhaps we will address this article in particular). But more-so hope others will be inspired, finding their dreams and a life without regrets.
אִם אֵין אֲנִי לִי, מִי לִי. וּכְשֶׁאֲנִי לְעַצְמִי, מָה אֲנִי. וְאִם לֹא עַכְשָׁיו, אֵימָתָי
This phrase, which is so very touching, strikes me with bewilderment at the same time.
Loss.
Perhaps we are still in somewhat denial with 7 or 6 months left to go. I have been focusing my time much more on 30 weeks of pregnancy and the disconnect between my body and brain that we will have an infant (G-d willing) soon. In fact, this consumes my thoughts about 90% of the time.
As I called the Jewish Agency to set up an interview, the music while on hold was a constant repeat of אין לי ארץ אחרת. A familiar tune, it is also one that was played during the pull out from Gaza, the Hitnatkut. I remember sitting in my aunt's apartment in Haifa, watching the images on TV and absolutely torn between the fundamental core values settling the land of Eretz Yisrael and the pursuit of peace.
I find myself thinking about loss and what this truly means.
While we've contributed to the community and communities we have lived in, this simply came as a no-brainer to help impact the future. The continuation of leadership is a healthy chain.
When I consider what we may be able to bring to Israeli society and to the land, we are excited by the ideals of Yeshuv Eretz Yisrael. We will certainly miss friends and family, but loss is the end of time. I've seen this process with my very own eyes - as a mother, bringing new life into the world and as a daughter, saying goodbye in an instant.
We chose wholeheartedly to make this change, aware of the negatives (yes, we've heard and read those too -- when we make it there, perhaps we will address this article in particular). But more-so hope others will be inspired, finding their dreams and a life without regrets.
אִם אֵין אֲנִי לִי, מִי לִי. וּכְשֶׁאֲנִי לְעַצְמִי, מָה אֲנִי. וְאִם לֹא עַכְשָׁיו, אֵימָתָי
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